Two.

lately i've been feeling like i'm not worth it. like there is nothing good going for me. i wish my life actually turned out as planned. i wish that i could make all my dreams come true already. yeah, i have this modeling thing going on, but every time i go to an event or photo shoot with my best friend, i feel like shes SO MUCH better than i am. like shes the one that they all want and im just the stupid little tag along. i wish i had the strength to be the person that i want to be. but i feel like that day will never come. this may not even make any sense write now, but i'm just writing, writing a song and about to be gone. ha, yeah i did just quot Eminem... i think thats how the lyrics go, maybe it is, maybe its not. psht who the fuck cares. this is my blog and i'll write whatever the hell i want. when i'm writing, i can hear the tune of "When I'm Gone" running through my head. thats funny, when i'm bored and want to write nothing comes to mind. but when its 4AM and i should be asleep, i somehow feel the words coming to me. damn, i'm good. maybe this modeling thing isn't for me. maybe i should just take up songwriting. that'd be cool, maybe i should. maybe i will. maybe i'll finally put these haters in their place. show then that i'm not that little girl that they used to pick on all though elementary and middle school....